You left too soon
at the New Year’s full moon
during a storm
alone unprotected
in a hotel room.
You took your precious life
with psychotic prescribed pills
medication that was meant to keep you sane.
Why did you go so cruelly,
every day we suffer
could we have saved you
from your mental toil, depression
schizophrenia, and confusion?
We will never know.
Years I watched your behavior
and torture, your hurts, and pain
the crazy anger and made-up names.
My delicate, beautiful, smart, young
sister I helped raise you being 10 years younger
We loved, taught, and played with you
saw all the stages: youth,
marriage, mother, grandmother
but the wild lonely mind of a mentally deranged brain
had no bounds.
You left us wondering, sad and pondering
Love has to rule in memory of you.
Let’s come together gather to remember mysterious, golden, long-limbed,
smart, spirited Jamie-we could not save but loved dearly.
Librarian Musings 